Different...
Thursday, November 6, 2008 |9:05:00 PM
Everything starts to change without my realisation.
One word to describe - DIFFERENT.
I feel so lost and confused now.
Not knowing what should I do or maybe what I need to do.
I'm just so scared.
I think I have lost the confidence.
I don't know why too.
Everyone around me either telling me this or asking me that?
Maybe they are right.
But I'll still hold on to it firmly no matter what unless.......
Maybe this is one of the process which I have to overcome???
I don't know.
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I think I have changed.
Likely to the worst?
I supposed.
YES, I MEAN CHANGED.
Maybe I'm the one who has changed but not everything around me?
I don't like changes.
But I have changed.
I'm the person who tell you that you can't do this but I can.
That's one of my bad points.
I'm also the kind of person who can forgive easily but somewhat can't forget easily too.
So does that still count I can forgive easily?
Yes, I'm selfish in some ways.
Yes, I'm started to become petty.
Yes, I am neither a good daughter, a good girlfriend nor a good friend.
Yes, I..............
Catch what am I trying to say?
I don't think you know.
Maybe it's time for me to do some reflection.
Don't know why am I writing this post now.
Maybe this is the only way I can pour out whatever I want to say.
Is there any listening ears for me when I'm in need of one?
Is there anyone who will remember me?
I doubt so.
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The worst feeling is not being lonely but it's being forgotten by someone.
It's not the same like before.
And I don't like it.
p.s * Ignorance is a bless? I doubt so.
p.s.s * Just because I'm not crying, doesn't mean I'm okay, it's because I have sick of it.
p.s.s.s * Dar Dar is still my beloved ones...
p.s.s.s.s * OR MAYBE I THINK TOO MUCH?
